Possibility and Imperfection
The art of being delayed
Author Note: My book Home: Meditations on living in the present is out and available on Amazon. Buy it here. Anyway this is part of a little series I am doing where I share an excerpt from Home and then my thoughts on the piece. Check out my first one “Living in a body” too.
Possibility
An excerpt from Home: Meditations on living in the present.
You might think there are only two possible outcomes. That the black and white, here and there is the whole picture, bound to a split decision. You must have an opinion. You should know the answer. You could have seen this coming. Only the water you are trying to hold is slipping through your fingers.
Rather than trying to control the outcome, what would it be like to surrender into a steady unfolding? The space between here and there is uncomfortable and messy, but it also offers the greatest possibility. When you let go of what should be for what is, you open your eyes to seeing and your heart to feeling, the myriad of tiny waves shifting over the surface of your lived experience.
With an awareness of this immensity, there becomes the capacity to shift in any direction. You can engage or connect or let go without their being a fixed outcome or even destination.You can act and then you can act differently. To that end, there is endless power to allow what is water to move you, bearing witness to the infinite space around you and the infinite space you take up.
Thoughts
Every ounce of my being wants to push and force and prod my way forward with this book BUT much of what I can do right now is out of my hands. I do not have control, so I might instead see the possibility. Here are a few ways I can do that:
I had a list of people who were at the ready to purchase my book to help support my work and overcome the new gatekeepers of the publishing industry algorithms (the more people the first 3 days the more it is recommended to other people). Everyone has been so supportive of the change and have just been giving me the kindest of words. It feels really vulnerable to write a book and share it with the world, the possibility in this delay is the needed reminded I am loved and supported along the way.
The amount that I have learned publishing this will be so useful in the long run. From formatting to timeline, there is a lot I did not know and now I do (which will be helpful because a longer more prose, “self help” book is in the works.)
There is a lesson here in patience and surrender and the letting things be as they are—always a great reminder.
My book is coming soon. I hope you enjoyed these excerpts along the way.
With love,
Kim